Thursday, December 18, 2014

Hard Candy Christmas

This song pretty much sums up all my feelings about Christmas. Dolly Parton knows how to bring the tears, that's for sure.

Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll gain some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just

Fine and Dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down



"Hard Candy Christmas" by Dolly Parton

Hey, maybe I'll dye my hair
Maybe I'll move somewhere
Maybe I'll get a car
Maybe I'll drive so far
They'll all lose track
Me, I'll bounce right back

Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll gain some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just

Fine and Dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

Hey, maybe I'll learn to sew
Maybe I'll just lie low
Maybe I'll hit the bars
Maybe I'll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on

Maybe I'll settle down
Maybe I'll just leave town
Maybe I'll have some fun
Maybe I'll meet someone
And make him mine
Me, I'll be just

Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

'Cause I'll be fine
(I'll be fine)
Oh, I'll be fine

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

Cezanne's 16 Shades of Blue

A song on aging by Tori Amos from her Unrepentant Gearldines album.

As her heart is slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of her mind
"She'll get over it" you say "in time"
in time? stop Father Time
If the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
how our clocks are black



"16 Shades Of Blue" by Tori Amos

Are you telling me it's over, disintegrating, lost and there's nothing I can do
Before you drop another verbal bomb, can I arm myself
with Cezanne's 16 shades of blue

As my heart is slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of my mind
"You'll get over it" you say "in time" in time?
If the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
clocks are black

You say "get over it if 50 is the new black, hooray this could be your lucky day"
But my cables they are surging almost over overloading as you disengage

Could your heart be slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of your mind
"We'll get over it" you say "in time" in time?
If the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
clocks are black

"That's it you're done.
You've screwed up your life"
before it's begun
There are those who say
I am now too old to play

See over there at 33 she fears she'll lose her job
because they hear the ticking of her clock
At only 15 I said 15, they say her future's bleak
She should have started this at 3

As her heart is slowly ripping into pieces
disconnecting from the circuits of her mind
"She'll get over it" you say "in time"
in time? stop Father Time
If the clocks are black absorbing everything but
a remembering how we made it that
how our clocks are black

Before you drop another verbal bomb
can I arm myself
with Cezanne's 16 shades of blue

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

More Sturgill - Living the Dream

I've been listeing to this album so much my southern accent is coming out, but I don't care becuase he is awesome! This is an acoustic version one of my faviorite songs.

That old man upstairs, he wears a crooked smile
Staring down at the chaos he created
Said son if you ain't having fun just wait a little while
Momma's gonna wash it all away
And she thinks Mercy's overrated

"Living the Dream" by Sturgill Simpson



Time and time again Lord I keep going through the motions
A means to an end but the ends don't seem to meet
Walking around living the dream anytime I take the notion
Til the truth comes bubbling up so bittersweet

Ain't no point getting outta bed if you aint living the dream
It's like making a big old pot of coffee when you ain't got no cream
I don't need to change my strings
The dirt don't hurt the way I sing
I don't have to do a Goddamn thing except sit around and wait to die

Been waiting on an angel waitress to come and take my order
Tell me all about the special today
Staring at a puddle of mud in my spoon couldn't be much boarder
Hoping them circles don't call back telling me to start today

That old man upstairs, he wears a crooked smile
Staring down at the chaos he created
Said son if you ain't having fun just wait a little while
Momma's gonna wash it all away
And she thinks Mercy's overrated

Monday, October 20, 2014

Turtles All the Way Down | Sturgill Simpson

This guy has brought country back! He has a great voice, humerous lyrics and that sad quality of country music that hits you in the gut. And his name is badass - Sturgill!

There's a gateway in our mind that leads somewhere out there beyond this plane
Where reptile aliens made of light cut you open and pull out all your pain
Tell me how you make illegal something that we all make in our brain
Some say you might go crazy but then again it might make you go sane

"Turtles All the Way Down" by Sturgill Simpson



I've seen Jesus play with flames in a lake of fire that I was standing in
Met the devil in Seattle and spent 9 months inside the lions den
Met Buddha yet another time and he showed me a glowing light within
But I swear that God is there every time I glare in the eyes of my best friend
Says my son it's all been done and someday yer gonna wake up old and gray
So go and try to have some fun showing warmth to everyone
You meet and greet and cheat along the way

There's a gateway in our mind that leads somewhere out there beyond this plane
Where reptile aliens made of light cut you open and pull out all your pain
Tell me how you make illegal something that we all make in our brain
Some say you might go crazy but then again it might make you go sane

Every time I take a look inside inside that old and fabled book
I'm blinded and reminded of the pain caused by some old man in the sky
Marijuana, LSD, psilocybin, and DMT they all changed the way I see
But love's the only thing that ever saved my life

So don't waste your mind on nursery rhymes
Or fairy tales of blood and wine
It's turtles all the way down the line
So to each their own til' we go home
To other realms our souls must roam
To and through the myth that we all call space and time

Monday, October 06, 2014

Promise

Here's a beautiful duo with Tori Amos and her daughter Natashya.

"Promise" by Tori Amos from the album Unrepentant Geraldines



[Tori:] Promise not to say

[Tash:] that you told me so
Promise not to say

[Tori:] that I'm getting too old

[Tash:] Promise not to take

[Tori:] never take your phone

[Tash:] I mean take their word

[Tori:] you mean over yours?
what I need to know, will you

[Tash:] Be there

[Tori:] Where the sun shines

[Tash:] I will be there

[Tori:] you are the light

[Tash:] that follows you everywhere

[Tash and Tori:] look for my love

[Tash:] where the sun shines
I will be there

[Tori:] will you

[Tash:] Promise not to judge

[Tori:] to judge who you love
I don't know if I...

[Tash:] Yes, make that Promise

[Tori:] whatever it is

[Tash:] can you hear the truth
if they accuse me

[Tori:] you think I'll doubt you?
what I need to know, will you

[Tash:] be there
when I am all alone

[Tori:] you're not alone

[Tash:] when I am broken down

[Tori:] we all break down

[Tash:] when every door is closed

[Tori:] there is one more

[Tash:] will you look for me?
I will rescue you

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Buddy Holly and Mary Tyler Moore

Don't you ever fear, I'm always near
I know that you need help
Your tongue is twisted, your eyes are slit
You need a guardian
Woo-hoo, and you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that



"Buddy Holly" by Weezer

What's with these homies, dissing my girl?
Why do they gotta front?
What did we ever do to these guys
That made them so violent?
Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that

Don't you ever fear, I'm always near
I know that you need help
Your tongue is twisted, your eyes are slit
You need a guardian
Woo-hoo, and you know I'm yours
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine
Woo-hoo, and that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that

Bang, bang a knock on the door
Another big bang and you're down on the floor
Oh no! What do we do?
Don't look now but I lost my shoe
I can't run and I can't kick
What's a matter babe are you feeling sick?
what's a matter, what's a matter, what's a matter you?
What's a matter babe, are you feeling blue? oh-oh!
And that's for all time
And that's for all time

Oo-ee-oo I look just like Buddy Holly
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore
I don't care what they say about us anyway
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that
I don't care bout that

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

Was this the one?

In case you were wondering - the answer is yes.

Tell me now, tell me true
Of all the things I did to you was this the one
That made you break
Did I make my last mistake


"My Last Mistake" by Dan Auerbach from Keep it Hid




Tell me now, tell me true
Of all the things I did to you was this the one
That made you break
Did I make my last mistake
Only you can play the game
Rope-a-dope and lay the blame
Cant you see, my body shake
Cause I made my last mistake
(Bridge)
I was out of line before
But this is so much more I know
I dont wanna be the king
Of every single living thing, just you
And you can be my queen, mama
Separate towns, separate hearts
Distant love from distant parts
Every man plays the snake
Bound to make his last mistake

Friday, August 01, 2014

The Aaron Neville Effect

When I first heard this song on the radio, I thought it had to be a woman. I pictured a turbaned Nina Simone or Erykah Badu. But it's a young hip looking man from England named Sam Smith.

"Stay With Me"  by Sam Smith



I call this the Aaron Neville effect. It first happened when I heard I Don't Know Much with Aaron Neville and Linda Ronstadt on the radio and then saw him on TV. It's like when you hear a song that sounds like angels singing down from heaven, and you picture light and air, but then you see the video and realize that it's a big burly guy in a sleeveless jean jacket.


Just goes to show how amazing music is and how it can morph itself to fit the most unsuspected vessel. Fascinating.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Sound Healing

 




Jason and I learned about Sound Healing last week, including playing with Tibetan Singing Bowls, tuning forks and a digital tamboroa. They are seven tones of bowls made from seven different metals which are toned to the seven body chakras. You can put the bowls directly on the body and make them "sing" and it feels incredible. You can also use tuning forks to create an "electric" feel in the ankle by holding a fork to both sides of the ankle at the bony prominences. The digital tambura sets a tonal wave and allows you to tone your body or chakras to help open energy fields and release stagnant energies. It was very cool and I can't wait to learn more about all of it and to integrate it into my daily practice.









Thursday, July 17, 2014

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me



"I Don't Want To Be" by Gavin DeGraw

I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!

Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be

Thursday, July 10, 2014

In Your Eyes

To Jason, thanks for putting up with me. I love you. You make me complete.



I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes

"In Your Eyes" by Peter Gabriel



love I get so lost, sometimes
days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are

all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

in your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
the heat I see in your eyes

love, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

and all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

in your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
the heat I see in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes

Tuesday, July 01, 2014

Don't be afraid - You're only dreaming...

Antoher great song off the album Keep It Hid by Dan Auerbach.

It's a nice little lullaby for those of us with the restless sleep and crazy dreams.

When the night comes
And you lay by the one you love
The one who knows you and the things you do
When the night comes

Don't be afraid
You're only dreaming...

"When the Night Comes" by Dan Auerbach



When the night comes
And you lay your weary head to rest
No more trials, no more tests
When the night comes

When the night comes
You don't have to be afraid
Of any choice you made
When the night comes

Don't be afraid
You're only dreaming...

When the night comes
The headlines read
Whatever's in your dreams
When the night comes

When the night comes
And you lay by the one you love
The one who knows you and the things you do
When the night comes

Don't be afraid
You're only dreaming...

When the night comes...

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Trouble Weighs a Ton - Dan Auerbach

If you like The Black Keys, you'll love the lead singer's - Dan Auerbach's - solo album Keep It Hid.

This is the first track on the ablum, "Trouble Weighs a Ton", and it's amazing.

Really speaks to the soul.



What's wrong, dear brother? Have you lost your faith?
Don't you remember a better place?
Needles and things, done you in
Like the setting sun
Oh, dear brother, trouble weighs a ton

What's wrong, dear sister? Did your world fall down?
Men misuse you and push you around
Same story dear, year after year
Pathetic men will run
Oh, dear sister, trouble weighs a ton

Trouble in the air
Trouble all I see
Does anybody care
Trouble killin' me
Whoa, it's killin' me

What's wrong, dear mother? Has your child disobeyed?
Left you hurtin' in so many ways
What once was sweet, the sorrow and greet
Cannot be undone
Oh, dear mother, trouble weighs a ton
Oh, dear mother, trouble weighs a ton


Wednesday, June 25, 2014

CHANGE THE FOOD SYSTEM

Found this ad in a Green Living flyer. Couldn't have said it better myself.


Next time someone tells you genetically engineered crops, also known as GMOs, are needed to feed the world, ask them to furnish even a single reputable study that shows GMOs have reduced world hunger since they were introduced in 1996.

Today's GMOs are mainly used for ethanol fuel, animal feed, and processed junk foods. Those things don't feed the world.

Join us to learn about the myths and truths of GMOs and help us CHANGE THE FOOD SYSTEM.

www.gmofreeusa.org

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Summer Solstice

Today is the Summer Solstice which marks the longest day of the year.


The shadows will only be getting longer now.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Masters of War

You that never done nothin'
But build to destroy
You play with my world
Like it's your little toy
You put a gun in my hand
And you hide from my eyes
And you turn and run farther
When the fast bullets fly.


"Masters of War" performed by Eddie Vedder (written by Bob Dylan).  



Come you masters of war
You that build all the guns
You that build the death planes
You that build all the bombs
You that hide behind walls
You that hide behind desks
I just want you to know
I can see through your masks.

You that never done nothin'
But build to destroy
You play with my world
Like it's your little toy
You put a gun in my hand
And you hide from my eyes
And you turn and run farther
When the fast bullets fly.

Like Judas of old
You lie and deceive
A world war can be won
You want me to believe
But I see through your eyes
And I see through your brain
Like I see through the water
That runs down my drain.

You fasten all the triggers
For the others to fire
Then you set back and watch
When the death count gets higher
You hide in your mansion'
As young people's blood
Flows out of their bodies
And is buried in the mud.

You've thrown the worst fear
That can ever be hurled
Fear to bring children
Into the world
For threatening my baby
Unborn and unnamed
You ain't worth the blood
That runs in your veins.

How much do I know
To talk out of turn
You might say that I'm young
You might say I'm unlearned
But there's one thing I know
Though I'm younger than you
That even Jesus would never
Forgive what you do.

Let me ask you one question
Is your money that good
Will it buy you forgiveness
Do you think that it could
I think you will find
When your death takes its toll
All the money you made
Will never buy back your soul.

And I hope that you die
And your death'll come soon
I will follow your casket
In the pale afternoon
And I'll watch while you're lowered
Into your deathbed
And I'll stand over your grave
'Til I'm sure that you're dead.

Wednesday, June 04, 2014

Happy Trails, Amos

There's going to be a lot of friendly faces and wagging tails at the Rainbow Bridge but for now it's another loss here on earth.

Many years ago, my parents decided to get a new dog. Dad always wanted a Boston Terrior so they got Annie when she was just a wee pup.

(Annie)

She was a handful from day 1. Mom and Dad knew this dog needed a playmate. So they got another Boston from another litter, but about the same age (just a wee pup).

(Amos)

Amos instantly became Annie's brother from another mother. Literally. For over a decade they've been inseparable.




Always her protector and best friend.


Amos lived hard and fast. He played harder than any other dog I've ever known. He's the only dog I've known to chase a squirrel and actually catch it! (Resulted in scratched corneas but he gave that squirrel the run of its life!)

Amos' last day with Annie was Monday June 2. Mom and Dad were with him and he's not in pain any longer.

Happy trails, Amos. You were a great pal and protector - we'll see you again at the Rainbow Bridge.

Monday, June 02, 2014

Short and Sweet

For Jdub. This was one of his favorites.
And sweet, sweet as a mountain stream
We'll look toward a new day breaking in the east
We'll meet as every future dream unfolds
And surely quality that is the very least
"Short and Sweet" by David Gilmore



"Short And Sweet"

You ask what is the quality of life?
Seeking to justify the part you play
And hide, fearing it incomplete
To try to make it any more or less than short and sweet

But short, short is from you to me
As close as we are wont to try to make it be
We're caught watching the dark in the sky
Who knows, helpless as time itself to hold the time of day

And you, you are a fantasy
A view from where you'd like to think the world should see
Be true and you will likely find
A few building a vision new and justice to our time

And we, we, the immoral men
We dare, naked and fearless in the elements
And free, carefree of tempting fate
Aware and holding off the moral nightmare at the gates

And sweet, sweet as a mountain stream
We'll look toward a new day breaking in the east
We'll meet as every future dream unfolds
And surely quality that is the very least

Thursday, May 29, 2014

I'm really glad you were born

 (Because sometimes "happy birthday" just doesn't seem appropriate. )

I had been searching for you over many lifetimes and I'm really glad you were finally born 43 years ago, so that now we can spend our lives together.

I love you Jason and I'm so glad you're in my life. 

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

They say you die twice...


"They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time." ~ Banksy


If the saying is true, Jdub will live on for a very long time. So many people were touched by his uniqueness that stories of his legend will carry on longer than most of our earthly bodies.

We love you and miss you, Jdub. The world is truly a sadder place without you.
Jason Patrick Wotherspoon, 45, born on March 17, 1969 in Glendale, California, passed away May 23, 2014. He resided in North Hollywood, California at the time of his passing. Arrangements are under the direction of Forest Lawn, Hollywood Hills, California. The funeral service is Tuesday, May 27 at Forest Lawn.




Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Invictus by William Ernest Henley

 
I read this passage at an MBSR workshop recently and it hit me hard and has stuck with me since. To me, it's about courage, vigilance, resilience and self-worth which are all things that I need to hold tightly during this season of my life.

Invictus by William Ernest Henley
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.

Thursday, May 01, 2014

With Ribbons Undone

"Ribbons Undone" by Tori Amos from The Beekeeper

You're a girl
Rising from a shell
Running through spring
With summer's hand in reach now
It is your time
It is your time
So just run with ribbons undone
It is your time yes my angel
It is your time
So just run with ribbons undone



She's a girl
Rising from a shell
Running to spring
It is her time it is her time
Watch her run with ribbons undone

She's a rose in a lily's cloak
She can hide her charms
It is her right there will be time
To chase the sun with ribbons undone

She runs like a fire does
Just picking up daises
Comes in for a landing
A pure flash of lightening
Past alice blue blossoms
You follow her laughter
And then she'll surprise you
Arms filled with lavender

Yes my little pony is growing up fast
She corrects me and says
"You mean a thoroughbred"
A look in her eyes says the battle's beginning
From school she comes home and cries
I don't want to grow up Mom at last not tonight

You're a girl
Rising from a shell
Running through spring
With summer's hand in reach now
It is your time
It is your time
So just run with ribbons undone
It is your time yes my angel
It is your time
So just run with ribbons undone

Run run darlin'
Ribbons undone

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Sound of Sunshine Coming Down

We've been having a lot of sunny days mixed with dark heavy rain but that's typical April weather in the Pacific Northwest. Makes for some beautiful pictures and rainbows.


This song came on the radio and it was perfect for this new "season" of our lives.

Some days you lose, you win
And the waters as high as the times you're in
So I jump back into where I learned to swim
Try to keep my head above it as best I can


"The Sound Of Sunshine" by Michael Franti & Spearhead



That's the sound of sunshine going down
And that's the sound of sunshine going down

I wake up in the morning at 6 o'clock
They say there may be rain but the sun is hot
I wish I had some time just to kill today
And I wish I had a dime for every bill I got to pay

Some days you lose, you win
And the waters as high as the times you're in
So I jump back into where I learned to swim
Try to keep my head above it as best I can

That's why here I am
Just waiting for this storm to pass me by
That's the sound of sunshine going down
And that's the sound of sunshine going down

I saw my friend, Bobby, he said "What's up man?
You gotta little work or a twenty to lend?"
I opened up my hand, he said, "I'm glad to see
They can take away my job but not my friends, you see"

Here I am
Just waiting for this storm to pass me by
And that's the sound of sunshine going down
That's the sound of sunshine going down

And we say that's the sound of the sun going down
And the people of the world start to paint the town
The day that's long is a day complete
So kick of your shoes and relax your feet

They say that miracles are never ceasing
And every single soul needs a little releasing
They say that money makes the world go 'round
But only one thing will have the sun go down

Yes, sweet, sweet love will have sun go down
It's true, it's true, it's true
And that's the sound of sunshine going down
That's the sound of sunshine going down

And I say you're the one I want to be with
When the sun goes down
You're the one I want to be with
When the sun goes down

Singing hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelu
Hallelujah, hallelu
You're the one I want to be with
When the sun goes down

That's the sound of sunshine going down
And that's the sound of sunshine going down
And all the people say
That's the sound of sunshine going down

So the moon can shine on you
So the moon can shine on you
So the moon can shine on you
So the moon can shine on you

Thursday, April 17, 2014

I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

Feels like this song is coming straight from my heart these days.

I seem to you to seek a new disaster every day
You deem me due to clean my view and be at peace and lay
I mean to prove I mean to move in my own way, and say,
I've been getting along for long before you came into the play


If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine



"Extraordinary Machine" by Fiona Apple



I certainly haven't been shopping for any new shoes
-And-
I certainly haven't been spreading myself around
I still only travel by foot and by foot, it's a slow climb,
But I'm good at being uncomfortable, so
I can't stop changing all the time

I notice that my opponent is always on the go
-And-
Won't go slow, so's not to focus, and I notice
He'll hitch a ride with any guide, as long as
They go fast from whence he came
- But he's no good at being uncomfortable, so
He can't stop staying exactly the same

If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

I seem to you to seek a new disaster every day
You deem me due to clean my view and be at peace and lay
I mean to prove I mean to move in my own way, and say,
I've been getting along for long before you came into the play

I am the baby of the family, it happens, so
- Everybody cares and wears the sheeps' clothes
While they chaperone
Curious, you looking down your nose at me, while you appease
- Courteous, to try and help - but let me set your
Mind at ease

(Chorus)

-Do I so worry you, you need to hurry to my side?
-It's very kind
But it's to no avail; I don't want the bail
I promise you, everything will be just fine

If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

This song has a lot of good advice. I have to remember these things better.

"Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On" from Take the Weather with You by Jimmy Buffett

According to my watch the time is now
Past is dead and gone
Don't try to shake it, just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

Don't try to explain it, just bow your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On






I bought a cheap watch from a crazy man
Floating down canal
It doesn't use numbers or moving hands
It always just says now

Now you may be thinking that I was had
But this watch is never wrong
And If I have trouble the warranty said
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

And it rained, It was nothing really new
And it blew, we've seen all that before
And it poured, the Earth began to strain
Pontchartrain leaking through the door, tides at war

If a hurricane doesn't leave you dead
It will make you strong
Don't try to explain it just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

And it rained, It was nothing really new
And it blew, seen all that before
And it poured, the Earth began to strain
Pontchartrain buried the 9th Ward to the 2nd floor

According to my watch the time is now
Past is dead and gone
Don't try to shake it, just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

Don't try to explain it, just bow your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

Sappy Drug Store Love Songs

Seems like every time I'm in a store, a sappy love song comes on over the speakers, especially in the mornings for some reason. This one came on in Rite Aid this morning - I was singing it in the aisles while I walked around looking at garden gnomes.

I remember being a pre-teen and listening to these songs in the 80s and 90s and wondering if anyone would ever feel this way about me or if I would ever feel this about someone.

20+ years later, I know the answer.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever. 



"Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore" by REO Speedwagon



I can't fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we're together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I've been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I'd never find.

And even as I wander,
I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter's night.
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
It's time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore.
I've forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.


Monday, March 24, 2014

And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other...

Jason and I were out running errands Saturday morning. Rite Aide, Safeway and New Seasons - no problem. It was a beautiful day and it was nice to be out of the house and with my fave person in the world.

We did our normal tag-team routine. He has the list and I drive the cart - doing a little TCB.

We were in New Seasons getting our bulk food. This is a total PITA with the bags and tags and bin numbers but we dove in and moved through it. As we are bagging up nuts, fig bars, seeds, teas, etc. this song comes on and I look at Jason and just drop a few tears. Of course, he looks at me all concerned and I smile and tell him I love him. And then I sang along in the aisle and serenaded him with this verse:

Let them say we're crazy.
I don't care about that.
Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart.
 

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.


Nothing in the world could be more true. Nothing's gonna stop us now.


"Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by Starship



(PS - This mullet looks so familiar - I think Jason had the same hairdo in the 90s! And that makes me love him even more!)
 
Looking in your eyes, I see a paradise.
This world that I found is too good to be true.
Standing here beside you,
I want so much to give you this love in my heart that I'm feeling for you

Let them say we're crazy.
I don't care about that.
Put your hand in my hand, baby, don't ever look back.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby we can make it if we're heart to heart.

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you, whatever it takes to stay here with you.
Take it too the good times, see it through the bad times.
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do.

Let them say we're crazy.
What do they know?
Put your arms around me, baby, don't ever let go.
Let the world around us just fall apart.
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart.

Oh, all that I need is you.
All that I ever need.
All that I want to do is hold you forever, forever and ever.

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

And we can build this thing together, standing strong forever, nothing's gonna stop us now.
And if this world runs out of lovers we'll still have each other.
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Welcome to 2010!

We finally did it.

We got Smartphones.

iPhone 4.


Got a wicked good deal - free phones and no activation or upgrade fees.

Now we can do all kinds of cool stuff (but I'm sure you already know these things).

Why did we take the plunge? Two reasons:

1.) The youngins. Keeping in touch with our young nephews and niece will be easier. We can FaceTime and see them. Over the years, we've realized that talking to little kids on the phone is pert near impossible. It just sounds like wild jabbering. Harper showed us that we needed to step up our technology when she was running through her house waving her folks' phone at her toys and saying, "look at this, look at that" and her parents said, "no you have to talk into it, they can't see through their phones". (Point noted!) 

Also, G-man is having another surgery on the 25th and I want to be able to see and talk to my family and get pictures and texts, etc. Please send all your positive vibes to our little guy. He's such a trooper! I'm so proud of his courage.

2.) It was simply beyond time. We were paying as much for unlimited talk and text on our brick phones as we are now for many more features on the iPhones.

Go ahead and say it - welcome to 2010!

I told the guy at the store that next time we upgrade, phones probably won't even exist and it'll just be holograms or something! Ha!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Vegas Baby! (But not the fun way)


I had a meeting in Las Vegas today. I'm on the plane now heading home. It's about 5:30pm and it's been a really long day.

When people think of Vegas, they think of gambling. I do not. I am not a gambler. Using my father's favorite expression, "might as well just stick that money up your ass!" And that's the truth. The last time I gambled, I put my quarter in the slot machine and it stole my quarter. Didn't even get to pull the handle.

Just planning to be in Vegas made my luck go south.

It started at 5:30am this morning. No driver. 7:10 am flight. Need driver stat! Called the car service and new driver was dispatched - showed up around 6am. Had mild anxiety but made to the airport with time to spare. (I guess there is some good luck mixed in with the bad.)

Then, we all boarded the plane and they found a hydraulic pump leak. We sat on the plane for an hour and then switched to another plane. The plane had just come in from Hawaii so they had to reset it and de-ice the wings. We took off around 8:50am. My meeting started at 10:30am. I got there at 11:30. And went to the wrong building. I finally got to the meeting with 10 minutes to do my part of the presentation.

Nailed it.

Off to lunch at the Grand Lux Cafe in the Venetian. Had a super yummy, gigantic seared rare ahi tuna salad. YUM!

Back to the airport with enough time for a beer.

Now I'm back on the plane heading home. We just flew over Lake Tahoe.

Wishing they had complimentary brewskis on this flight.

So it's been a day of bad luck sprinkled with good luck.

The final sign that I shouldn't gamble - I found a dime in the security line and was going to search out a dime slot machine but I lost the dime in the luggage scanner. Didn't even get to pull the handle.

And so it goes.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Change is upon us


 Spring is here.
My favorite season.
The tulips and hyacinths are blooming.
Change is upon us. 

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

Marching Right Along


So it's March already. Wow. 

Here's a bit of a photo round up for the last few weeks.
 
Yummy!
Edible Arrangement from my parents for my birthday. 
It was DEEELICIOUS!


Fence sitting. 
I saw the neighbor kid sitting on the fence for quite a while the other day. I thought the kid's angles and red hair and blue shirt against the bleak wall cut a profound image. It made me think about what I used to think about when I used to sit on fences and think.


The Pride. 
Jason and the boys sleeping in late. The animals are like self-ratcheting bookends. You move just a little and they scrunch in to make sure they are still touching you. This one is hilarious because they each have their head on a pillow.


Animal house.
I was on the floor doing yoga and Derville had worked his way into a grocery bag and was "lying in wait" for Jason to come into the living room. I grabbed my camera and was taking photos on the floor...


... when Crash got jealous and wanted a photo opp too...


... so we took a smoochie selfie. Then I took photos of both of them.


Hello March! Let's have some sun!

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Stubborn Love

"Stubborn Love" by The Lumineers

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love



She'll lie and steal, and cheat, and beg you from her knees
Make you think she means it this time
She'll tear a hole in you, the one you can't repair
But I still love her, I don't really care

When we were young, oh, oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh, ooh, we bundled up
I can't be told, ah, ah, it can't be done

It's better to feel pain, than nothing at all
The opposite of love's indifference
So pay attention now, I'm standing on your porch screaming out
And I won't leave until you come downstairs

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love

And I don't blame you dear for running like you did all these years
I would do the same, you'd best believe
And the highway signs say we're close but I don't read those things anymore
I never trusted my own eyes

When we were young oh, oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh, ooh we bundled up
I can't be told, ah, ah, it can't be done

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love

Head up, love
Head up, love
Head up, love
Head up, love

Monday, February 24, 2014

Heart Mandala

Jason made this heart mandala for my birthday card.



It's hanging next to my work station sending me love all the time. 

I heart mandalas!

Thursday, February 20, 2014

So, I spent the day working in a bar

I feel like I've been in this bar all day - and not in the good way!!


Home Turf Sports Bar at LAX at 9am.
Waiting for meeting.
 4 hours to go.
Maybe I got here a little early?
#ballerconsultant

Update:


Home Turf Sports Bar at LAX at 3:30 pm.
Waiting to go home.
1.5 hours to go.
At least the scene makes more sense with beer!
#ballerbeerdrinkerconsultant

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Muffintop Massacre

Whew! I really like the POP Pilates at Blogilates so I've been trying out different videos.

Jason and I did the "Muffintop Massacre" last weekend. I've done it a few more times and it's INTENSE!



Today, I also tried this total body workout. It was the toughest 17 minutes I've had in a long time!



I'm gonna be sore tomorrow!





Monday, February 10, 2014

Icelandia

Hello? Is anybody out there? We're just starting to emerge from our fortress of  ice and snow solitude.


Jason just left the house in the car for the first time since Thursday morning. We've only left the house once since Thursday, and that was a hike to get beer!

Like Jimmy Buffet sings in Boat Drinks, "This mornin, I shot six holes in my freezer, I think I got cabin fever, Somebody sound the alarm."

Winter weather gives me anxiety. Not knowing when we'll be able to get to the store again, or to work, or if we'll crash our car doing it. And the pets need their heartworm medicine from the Vet! Oh my!

Speaking of freezers and anxiety, take a look at our fridge as of this morning (Monday).


We have eaten pretty much EVERYTHING in the house. Luckily, the animals still have food. I'd hate to spend one night with a hungry Derville! He can be pretty crazy about his food - must be fed every 4 hours or he loses his shit. Thank gawd we have tons of pet food! (We may all be sharing it if we don't get to the store today.)

We had to shovel the driveway so Jason could get the car out. We really should buy at least one snow shovel (to use every 5 years) because garden shovels are NOT very effective for snow.

Jason took the flat head shovel and I took the pointy head shovel - it was slow going.

Driveway before shoveling:

Driveway after about an hour of dual shoveling:

It was really loud and I'm sure the neighbors were laughing their asses off but he was able to get out and on his way (still waiting to hear if he got there okay just got the text that he made it and picked up the pet meds!).

The ice is melting but it's still pretty bad out there.


Crash definitely isn't loving it. He'll go out to pee, but he's been a total poop with-holder! I bet it's hard to relax your butt-hole when it's this cold! We shoveled a path for him but he was determined to not use it!


We accumulated about six inches of snow before the ice hit.



Now it's just a waiting game - hopefully it will all be melted by this evening. We need to go to the store!!

The best thing about the snow-in is that we didn't have anything to do and TV was crap and we've watched ALL THE MOVIES so we exercised a TON. We did Pilates and Nia and Yoga and hoola hoop each day. It was kind of like a spa weekend. Just kidding - it was not like a spa weekend but it felt good not to just sit around like lumps on a log.



Friday, February 07, 2014

The Things We Do for Brew

Looks like we're going to be socked in for a few days so Jason and I decided to hike over to the closest beer store and get "provisions". It is super slippery and the snow is DEEP so it made for slow walking and difficult street crossings. It was dangerous, but we would not be dissuaded!

The mission was a success! 12 pack of Session, 6 pack of Drop Top Amber and a tube of Pringles. We're prepared for the worst :-)


Here's a gif of my (snow) man on a (beer) mission:


P.S. SEND TACOS!!!!

Thursday, February 06, 2014

Snow Day!

It's snowing like crazy here! This is the first time Crash has ever seen snow and he's a little concerned.

I think this picture sums it up for all of us.

(WHY?!?)

I took this picture 2 hours later.


And it's not supposed to stop for 24 hours....

Wednesday, February 05, 2014

Ray LaMontagne - Old Before Your Time

We recently discovered the magical sounds of Ray LaMontagne. He is filed under folk, jazz, country, soul and a few others. Jason says you know they're good when they can't be classified. This is a really beautiful song from his album God Willin' & The Creek Don't Rise.

Ain't it about time you realize? It's not worth keepin' score
You win some, you lose some and you let it go
What's the use of stacking on every failure another stone
Till you find you've spent your whole damn life
Building walls, lonely and old before your time


"Old Before Your Time" by Ray LaMontagne



When I was a younger man lookin' for my pot of gold
Everywhere I turned the doors were closin'
It took every ounce of faith I had to keep on keepin' on
And still I felt like I was only losin'

I refused then like I do now to let anybody tie me down
And I lost a few good friends along the way
I was raised up poor and I wanted more
And maybe I'm a little too proud
In lookin' back I see a kid who was just
Afraid, hungry and old before his time

Through the years I've known my share of broken hearted fools
And those who couldn't choose a path worth taking
There's nothin' in the world so sad as talking to a man
Who never knew his life was his for making

Ain't it about time you realize? It's not worth keepin' score
You win some, you lose some and you let it go
What's the use of stacking on every failure another stone
Till you find you've spent your whole damn life
Building walls, lonely and old before your time

It took so long to see
That truth was all around me

Now the wren has gone to roost and the sky is turnin' gold
And like the sky my soul is also turnin'
Turnin' from the past, at last and all I've left behind
Could it be that I am finally learnin'?

Learnin' I'm deserving of love and the peaceful heart
I won't tear myself apart no more for tryin'
I'm tired of lyin' to myself, tryin' to buy what can't be bought
It's not livin' that you're doin' if it feels like dyin
Cryin, growin' old before your time
Cryin, growin' old before your time

Tuesday, February 04, 2014

Getting to the CORE of it


I exasperated my lower back issues (herniated disks) training for and running a 10k in October so it's been difficult to find exercises that don't make it worse. I've gone back to my physical therapy exercises from the first time my back gave me trouble 8 years ago. They've really been helping but my sciatica is still flaring up and it  feels like I've been kicked in the butt by a horse. My right leg alternates between radiating pain and tingling. I've done a lot of reading and basically, I need to build my core. I mean BUILD THE SHIT OUTTA MY CORE!

I feel like I've hit a plateau with my normal workouts (Nia, yoga, hoola hoop) so I've been searching out some new FREE routines.

I used to do Pilates with bands but I never felt results. That was before I had back pain, so I gave it another try today.

HOLY COW MY LEGS, ASS AND ABS!!! I was sweating more in 10 minutes of pilates than I would after running 3 miles! These videos are short and to the point. It's great because I only feel like I'm dying for a short period of time. Here are the three videos I did today.

Legs and thighs



5 Minute Ab Express Workout




Flat Belly Fat Burner



Tuesday, January 28, 2014

The Velveteen Doggie

Crash finally made it out to Betty's for a grooming last weekend. We love taking him there. They are so awesome with our little guy. He's a bit of a special case but they all love him to pieces and he gets great treatment!

He hadn't been in since September and looked like a total hobo! He even had dreadlocks in his beard!

Before:

After:
(I love that curly-lipped smile. Like there's a little Elvis in him.)

Now he feels like a velveteen doggie. So slick and no matted spots or dreadlocks. 


Prancing around!

It looks like he lost ten pounds! We were starting to think he was a bit of a chunk!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Hoop Love



A few weeks ago we finally got around to making hula hoops for Jason and I! We love them!

If you're interested in making your own, here are the materials you'll need:

 3/4" poly tubing
3/4" internal coupling
Ratcheting PVC cutter (optional but makes things SO much easier)
Colorful tape (I used the colored duct tape)

Follow these instructions.

Jason and I took the hula hoops out for a spin last weekend. The weather was perfect.

One arm in the air!


 Two arms in the air! The Hula Vortex!


Vortexing!

Then we went to Cooper Mountain and hiked around. The sun was absolutely glorious!


I love the shadows.