Friday, September 28, 2012

At My Window


I've said it several times and I'll say it again - Townes Van Zandt is an amazing musician, singer, songwriter and an absolute lost soul.

"At My Window" is the first song on one of our Townes Van Zandt albums and I'll turn it on in the morning while I get started with work. Sitting in my office looking out the window, thinking about the day, days past and days to come. I like this song.

Favorite lyrics:
Time flows
Through brave beginnings
And she leaves her endings
Beneath our feet

Here's a live version of "At My Window" with full band in 1987.



At my window
Watching the sun go
Hoping the stars know
It's time to shine
Daydreams
Aloft on dark wings
Soft as the sun streams
At days decline

Living is laughing
Dying says nothing at all
Baby and I are laying here
Watching the evening fall

Time flows
Through brave beginnings
And she leaves her endings
Beneath our feet
Walk lightly
Upon their faces
Leave gentle traces
Upon their sleep

Living is dancing
Dying does nothing at all
Baby and I are laying here
Wathing the evening fall

Three dimes
Hard luck and good times
Fast lines and low rhymes
Ain't much to say
Feel fine
Feel low and lazy
Feel grey and hazy
Feel far away

Living is sighing
Dying ain't flying so high
Baby and I are lying here
Watching the day go by

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Travelin' On by Norah Jones

Many years ago, I was living far away from home in the heart of Humboldt County California. I'd never heard of Norah Jones but one day a care package came from my mom. If you've never seen one of her care packages, they are hilarious. She starts a box and then just tosses random items in there over a span of months as she sees things and thinks of me. (I have ten different kinds of zesters because of this and I love everyone of them!) Anyway, I received a much welcomed care package including kitchen accessories, dog toys, ill-fitting tops from Chicos, random childhood books and a Norah Jones album -- Come Away with Me.  Mom said she'd been listening to this album on permanent repeat and that I must listen to it. I'll never forget falling in love with that album. Everyday getting ready for my craptastic job and letting Norah soothe my soul. And I knew my mom was listening to it too. Thousands of miles apart but joined together by one album. Things didn't feel so lonely.

Thanks for sending those crazy care packages, Mom. Now get out your Little Broken Hearts album and let's have a listen!

"Travelin' On"  is my favorite lately. It soothes my restless, impatient soul and also gives voice to that little part of me that's constantly dumbfounded by the world around me -- not scared of it, just bewildered by it. 

I love the transcension at the end of the song:

Ooh ooh...
I can't believe what's happening now
Ooh ooh...
I love the way it's happening now

"Travelin' On" by Norah Jones from Little Broken Hearts

Favorite lyrics:

Hey don't be too hard on yourself
I'll be okay
Cause we won't leave this place any worse
Than when we came



You could never be a face in the crowd
So you're travelin' on, travelin' on out
Well you know I'd never say it out loud
But I'll be travelin' on, travelin' with you

Hey I'm too weak it's too much to fight off
The past so strong
But now I don't think too much of the time
I'll just try to keep up

Ooh ooh...
I can't believe what's happening now
Ooh ooh...
I can't believe what's happening now

If you notice that I'm falling behind
I'm taking my time taking it all in
So call me when you get where you're going
I'll keep travelin' on, travelin' to you

Hey don't be too hard on yourself
I'll be okay
Cause we won't leave this place any worse
Than when we came

Ooh ooh...
I can't believe what's happening now
Ooh ooh...
I can't believe what's happening now
Ooh ooh...
I love the way it's happening now

Monday, September 24, 2012

The Butterfly Story



I've been reading Zorba the Greek by Nikos Kazantzakis and it is an amazing book. I first heard of it through references in a few of my meditation books. This is the story that is usually referenced -- the butterfly story:

I remember one morning when I discovered a cocoon in the back of a tree just as a butterfly was making a hole in its case and preparing to come out. I waited awhile, but it was too long appearing and I was impatient. I bent over it and breathed on it to warm it. I warmed it as quickly as I could and the miracle began to happen before my eyes, faster than life. The case opened; the butterfly started slowly crawling out, and I shall never forget my horror when I saw how its wings were folded back and crumpled; the wretched butterfly tried with its whole trembling body to unfold them. Bending over it, I tried to help it with my breath, in vain.

It needed to be hatched out patiently and the unfolding of the wings should be a gradual process in the sun. Now it was too late. My breath had forced the butterfly to appear all crumpled, before its time. It struggled desperately and, a few seconds later, died in the palm of my hand.

That little body is, I do believe, the greatest weight I have on my conscience. For I realize today that it is a mortal sin to violate the great laws of nature. We should not hurry, we should not be impatient, but we should confidently obey the eternal rhythm.

Such a beautiful and delicate reminder that everything will happen in its own time. Patience is absolutely necessary for life. It's hard to wait; sometimes it feels like it's never going to happen. But then, sometimes, the sun is just right and your wings warm up and before you know it, you're on the ride of a lifetime.

We just have to remember -- Everything in its own time.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

The World is a business, Mr. Beale!

This is one of my all-time favorite movie clips and it comes from The Network (1976).

It's crazy that this movie is 36 years old and the key message here is sill very much the same as today ... "the world is a business."


If you want to know how the world really works, check out this clip. Ned Beatty is so eloquent yet scary as hell.



I love quoting the first line ... "You have meddled with the primal forces of nature, Mr. Beale!"

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Jack Kerouac's Big Sur (by Jay Farrar and Ben Gibbard)

(Bixby Bridge - Big Sur - California)

This song "Big Sur" is from the album/documentary One Fast Move or I'm Gone: Kerouac's Big Sur  by Jay Farrar (Son Volt) and Ben Gibbard (Death Cab for Cutie).

The lyrics are based on the prose of Jack Kerouac's novel Big Sur (1962). One Fast Move or I'm Gone was a result of Gibbard's and Farrar's mutual appreciation for Kerouac's work while recording several songs for a feature-length documentary of the same name. Every song on this album is beautiful, sad, melancholy, happy all in one. Like Kerouac -- a beautiful tragic comedy.

If you've ever been to Big Sur, this song will tune into that special place in your heart. That dark cabin under the Bixby Bridge with waves crashing, saying your name and whispering secrets to you.

Favorite line:

I'm just a sick clown, and so is everybody else
In Big Sur
In Big Sur



Sittin' down with warm glow woodstove and kerosene
Peace you're lookin' for
Peace you'll find
In the tanglement cliff sides and crashin' down
Of Big Sur
Of Big Sur

Rapturous ring of silence, Pacific fury
Crashing on the rocks
Sea shroud towers
The innocence of health and stillness in the wild
Of Big Sur
Of Big Sur

This whole surface of the world
As we know it now
Will be covered with the silt of a billion years in time

I see as much as doors will allow
A long way from
The Beat Generation
Here comes the nightly mark to his nightly death
In Big Sur
In Big Sur

The best thing to do is not be false
Rocks of the valley
Have left no hall of complaints
I'm just a sick clown, and so is everybody else
In Big Sur
In Big Sur

Saturday, September 08, 2012

Loving Kindness Meditation



This is a loving kindness meditation for yourself or someone you're thinking about.


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Deep breaths in...deep breaths out

Let the thoughts that creep into your mind float downstream with the lotus flowers and crocodiles

Deep breaths in...deep breaths out

As you breathe, repeat the following or use your own words about your feelings

May you have strength
May you have patience
May you have courage

Deep breaths in...deep breaths out


May you have integrity
May you have support
May you have confidence

Deep breaths in...deep breaths out

May you have grace
May you have wisdom
May you have breath

Deep breaths in...deep breaths out.

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Thursday, September 06, 2012

Processing the End of Summer

It's like our garden knew that Labor Day was upon us and the end of Summer near. We did a major harvest and processed a ton of food this weekend. We pulled up most of the beets, all onions, radishes, cucumbers. We also went to a UPICK that had TONS of peppers so we gathered all of the tomatoes from our garden and made some killer salsa.

Here's a little taste of our weekend for you.

Peppers at the UPICK

At least 5 types of peppers -- all for about $2.50!

 Salsa supplies (and squash)


We had so many beets and didn't feel like canning so we are trying out different kimchi mixes.


YUM beets (I looked like a blood-covered maniac when I finished peeling these)!


Kimchi fixins (cabbage, green/yellow/red onions, garlic)


Radish pods and flowers with grated carrots and ginger for kimchi


This is the "mostly beets" kimchi


"mostly radish pods and flowers" kimchi


Beets, carrots and onions for roasting (the candy stripe Chioggia beets are so pretty and tasty!)


There were a few berries left at the UPICK. This one sums up my feelings for blackberries.


I love berries!