Thursday, April 07, 2011

Breaking out of the mold

Currently, I've been re-reading "One" by Richard Bach -- the follow-up to his novel "The Bridge Across Forever." I really like both of these books. Actually I like all of Bach's books -- Jonathan Livingston Seagull is especially simple yet beautiful.

"One" is particularly interesting to me right now because the central idea is that every version of ourself already exists.

Wow.

Just imagine: the version that grew up in the big city and the one that grew up in a small town. The one that went to college and traveled the world and the one that stayed and worked a hometown job. The one that met their soulmate and lived happily ever after and the one that fucked it all up and let the soulmate slip away. The version that is successful and the one that fails miserably.

They all exist. At the same time. We just have to make the choices that result in the perpetuation of the version of ourselves that we want to be.

 No one can make the decision to change your life for you. It has to come from within.


Pardon me, but I've been on quite the existential journey lately. So many things to think about, choices to make, risks to calculate, triggers to pull. My internal struggle to find peace in a dual-identity existence is being stretched to the limit.

Logical brain fights freedom-seeking brain.

"Some times you have to let your dreams go," says logic.

"NEVER!!" is the returned battle cry of the freedom-seeker.

All signs in my life seem to be saying this:

Take the leap toward happiness - it's scary, but no one can do it for you.

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